Nope. Nope. Nope. Maybe…
Sixteen pairs of jeans.
SIXTEEN pairs of jeans.
That is how many pairs of jeans I tried on tonight. And yes, I counted them. There were sixteen, by the way.
They were all blue. They were all made of denim. They all had two pockets in the front and two pockets in the back. They all had a riveted metal button and a zipper.
And that is where the similarities ended.
Too short, too long, too tight here, too loose there, too frumpy, too low-cut, too light, and then there was the Steve Urkel pair. Seriously…they came a good 3″ above my navel. What the heck?
I ended up with one pair that will be suitable as ankle jeans for the summer. That was a lot of work for one pair of jeans. Did I mention I tried on sixteen pairs?
And that six of them I tried on at least twice?
Today a friend of mine was recounting her journey as she has searched to know God. I think she’s had a sixteen-jean experience.
I think many of us have had sixteen-jean experiences.
What we want sounds so simple. As simple as a pair of jeans. We want to know God and be known by Him. We want to be secure in our relationship with Him, assured of an abundant life and a hopeful eternity.
But…there are churches and teachers and issues and interpretations and belief systems and they are too short, too long, too tight here, too loose there, too frumpy…
It can be a challenge to find a good fit. I’m not talking about a nice church. I mean it can be a challenge to learn how to navigate a relationship with God in a way that is authentic to how He wired you and who He is making you to be. But that is one reason He keeps encouraging us to seek Him. It’s not a trick. He’s not hiding. He’s just so incredibly vast and unlimited, and we are finite beings designed to be one with the Infinite. It can be a challenge to find out where we fit into His vastness in such a way that the relationship becomes intimate, a perfect fit.
He is worth the search. He is worth the trying on and taking off, the twisting and turning and pinching. He is worth the time and energy and even the heartache that comes with the journey. Your journey is your journey. It probably won’t look like anyone else’s.
And keep in mind…those other fifteen pairs of jeans fit someone out there.
It’s just not me.